Thanks for the reponses, everyone... I only wish now I had contacted MD Anderson from the very start...

And the thanks for the "kick in the pants" on my attitude... usually I'm pretty upbeat... For some reason, that got my goat... I'm also a little sore at a friend of mine over some comments he made "about knowing too much" about what happens to cancer patients in my shoes (i.e. implying he knows the "poor" odds)... arggg... don't bring the negative attitudes around me, as I already have enough trouble overcoming my own doubts and fears... should I sick all of you on him? haha