Wayne,
I can honestly say that I had a great Christmas. I didn't dwell on cancer too much at all, though I tried to use it as an excuse when my sister wanted to smack me because I was poking fun at her. "Certainly you wouldn't hit a girl with cancer would you?" We laughed about this. Of course she wouldn't hit me. And just between us, cancer or no, I could take her! The only thing missing from today was snow. Can you imagine? Minnesota and no snow for Santa. It's pretty rare. We need the blanket of white to cover up the brown grass. My living room looks like ToysRus vomited in here; if we had a fire, the place would melt with all of the plastic. I can honestly say that our decor is now "early Fisher Price"! But it's okay. Kids are only little for such a short time, I can live with the mess for now.
And this might be one for the record books. I think that it is entirely possible that I am the only cancer patien ever to gain 8 pounds in the month following thier diagnosis. I am not even kidding. If it is food, it's for me. I have not held back one tiny bit this holiday season. If I felt like having seconds (or thirds) I did it. I have struggle for years with my weight and have recently lost a ton of it. Eighty pounds to be exact. I have about 30 more to go. Well, now I guess it's 38 more to go. I decided that this was the year to quit worrying about my calories during the Holidays. I am calling it the "Amy's first annual holiday food fest". I am going to quit worrying about gaining ten pounds between Thanksgiving and New Years. I kind of hope to gain ten pounds every year. It'll give me something to do in January. Don't worry, I'll do good the rest of the year. Or, most of it anyway.
So to sum it up: Cancer is the best shitty thing to have ever happened to me.
And just in case you are wondering, I am going back to eating like normal tomorrow. I'll probably splurge on New Years Eve, but I gotta get back to normal. Gotta have all of the fruits and vegetables and other good stuff that I can handle. I want to have my strength for the surgery.
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Good Night!
Amy
