I experienced some of the same feelings. I'm wondering if it's some kind of normal state. The posters above me have given you some great suggestions. Maybe it will just run its course. Please keep us posted. Because we're your friends too!

David 2
SCC of occult origin 1/09 (age 55)| Stage III TXN1M0 | HPV 16+, non-smoker, moderate drinker | Modified radical neck dissection 3/09 | 31 days IMRT finished 6/09 | Hit 15 years all clear in 6/24 | Radiation Fibrosis Syndrome kicked in a few years after treatment and has been progressing since | Prostate cancer diagnosis 10/18