Sll what you are describing unfortunately is pretty much a normal course of events. All the way down to the feelings you are having of helplessness, and then feeling guilty for wanting your life back. I think my run in with this disease was tougher on my wife than it was on me sometimes.

So that's why we're all here, so you can scream, complain and vent to us, we've all been there on one side of the fight or other, either as patient or caregiver, some of us have done both.

As far as rad playing tricks with the brain, that's been a pretty highly discussed subject, do a search on the board for "chemo brain" and you'll find that we've all got some signs of something similar.

Thing is, once you find out what you and your husband are going through is normal for this stage, it seems to not be so bad. Doesn't make it any less of a problem, but it starts to become a "normal" problem if that makes any sense.

Hope things get better soon.
Bob