I feel silly but I have been just hoping this would go away and we my husband and I could make it... Last dec. he was diag. with scc and we went to dana farb. in boston, we were lucky to get in quickly and received the best treatment, chemo/rad and just finished with neck disection)he is currently in the kitchen coughing like he seems to do always, unable to really eat as yet he only had the staples removed yesterday and the path report was unclear but did say that there was one node with cancer removed and the dr. (not his regular dr) felt that this was to be expected and he was doing great... well great is relative... yesterday was my birthday (i am his wife in case i didn't say_) and all i wanted was no more cancer... lets just get our lives back I am losing my head and feel so guilty... after all he is the one going through this but I feel helpless in this battle... we have been told he is doing great... but every time he tries to eat he coughs and chokes and it is horrid, there has to be an easier way... also i am concerned with his mental state. he seems so much older mentally since this happened, i am sure the radiation played bad tricks on his brain he fortunately doesn't see it , but it makes me very concerned and if one more person tells me everyone is different, i will scream


screaming.
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