sll,

No need to feel silly. This sort of thing wreaks havoc on the care-givers as well as the patients. If the docs say your husband is doing great, then believe them as they see many patients every day and can make pretty fair comparisons, even though it may not look like it to your eyes. Most folks have a very rough time with the treatments for this disease and it sounds like your husband is one of them. He's still pretty fresh from treatment and it takes some time to recover. But it will get better.

I had both chemo and radiation, but no surgery. I know that my mentality is different than before treatment. I think part of it is a result of the treatments -- seemingly slower mental processes and so forth. Chemo-brain, if you will. But I think part of the change also results from simply having gone through the experience of diagnosis, treatment and recovery. I'm not quite the same guy that I was. My perspective has changed. In some strange way, it's a little like being reborn. I often jokingly tell my friends that I'm not the guy I used to be, I'm just what's left of him.

In any case, welcome to the forum and happy birthday.

-Brett