Hi Emilie - You've come to the best place to be for all the latest and accurate information, plus lots of support from people who have travelled the road you are on now. It's great that you quit smoking! Yay! You already done something really difficult to do and looks like you are all set with a plan. The waiting for anything to happen is always the worst time but it helps if you can keep busy and try to think of all the ways everything can go just the way it's supposed to. If the negative thoughts start to creep into your head, just tell them to cut the chatter and force yourself to think of other more positive things. Tell your doctor how you are feeling - he might be able to prescribe something to help lessen the anxiety. Are you at a Comprehensive Cancer Center (where a team of doctors get together to help you decide on the best approach for your particular needs)? Have you already had surgery? There is so much really good information that you can check out on the main pages of OCF and it can help you formulate any questions you might have for your doctors or for anyone here. I'm sure others will be along with experiences that more closely match yours and can give you more suggestions. When my son was first diagnosed with SCC, just waiting for his surgery date was a crazy-maker but we did get through it and you will too! Dec 3rd will be here soon, so hang in there and there will be lots of people to help you through it. Come back often to let us know how you are doing.