Katie,

Thank you for verbalizing that thought by the way, as they are exactly the ones I had shortly after diagnosis. Some of us may never know the "reason" we got this awful disease, like my friend told me "Eric it's like you won the lottery, only not the lottery anyone would want to win.".

As a poker player I guess I look at it as I've been dealt a hand, and it's not the hand I've been dealt that counts, but the way I play that hand. I've always admired those examples in history personally.