Hi Connie,
I'm so sorry you lost your husband and then had to battle this dreadful disease yourself. You truly must be an amazingly strong person to come through it all.
Being one of my moms caregivers was the single most tragic but rewarding experiences of my life. It was incredibly painful to watch her physical and emotional struggle, and share that with her, but I wouldn't hesitate to do it all over again... and as hard as it was, if I had the chance I would spend my life caring for her. She and I were kindred souls, practically twins, no one else on earth was more like me than her and nobody else could make me feel whole and at home like her. I struggle every day trying to figure out how to live my life without her.
I hope you had a caregiver throughout your battle who was as loving and caring as you were with your husband.