Emily, i know exactly as you feel, but i decided to do not drink again in my life. Yes, radical. I hate alcohol, drugs and smoking (and smokers that dont respect people) but i recognize your feeling.

We just feel limited and not so free.

Well, maybe i can drink a champagne after 10 years cancer free, but it will happer in 2021! Maybe we can "cheers" together!

December, 2011 - T1N0M0 SSC Oral Tongue sugery (Dec 07, 2011). Partial glossectomy, primary closure. Selective Neck dissection, all 57 nodes free. 29 at diagnosis, no risk factors at all. No smoking, drinking and HPV negative. Can you explain? I can't.