Kathy, I understand where you are coming from. Its a fear we all have. After I finished radiation and chemo, I was so afraid of a recurrence that I avoided the "Recurrence" threads like the plague. Well after realizing that I was being pretty foolish thinking that reading something could jinx me I ended up with a recurrence anyway. Then another year later it got me again. Those recurrences taught me alot! They taught me not to waste my time being afraid of something I have little if not any control over. Worrying wont change the future. Its possible that any of us can get a recurrence. The patients who like Kevin that are HPV+ have better odds against having a recurrence.

All I can say is that some caregivers end up taking anxiety meds right along with many patients. Cancer is a very frightening experience. It forces us all to take a good long look at our own mortality. For most of us, we arent ready to admit that we are fragile and could be taken by this disease. Do the best you can to enjoy life. The longer your husband is past his treatments, the easier it will become to go on living your lives.