I have to say it was a while before I could think about the future but then i realized i was letting cancer win if I spent all my time thinking about it and worrying - sometimes the thoughts creep in, then i ask myself - have I and am I doing ALL that I can to try and prevent a recurrence - ? Proper nutrition? Exercise? Stress relief? Treatment? Chck ups? Diligence? The answer is yes. Then it's out of my hands - sure I may have a recurrence, but I may have a heart attack or get laid flat by a bus or shot during a robbery at a supermarket - we take a risk everyday we open our eyes and climb out of bed. Enjoy NOW. Hugs, love, and prayers.... and venting is the best thing !!!