I have found my " WHY " Eric, and something wierd tells me this is what is supposed to happen. Korinne and I are finally going to make it official, we don't have the stress of the house over our head anymore, she is just a mile away, and I finally got that answer I was looking for about my career. I have hated my career for the last 7 years, ironically I remember puffing on a cig looking up at the sky about 2 years ago begging for a sign, begging for direction and how this can't be my life. Here we are today, a new path, new friends and new challenges. This cancer has removed me from that previous stress and in a sense made me feel free. Ive had several inspiring dreams, the kind where you wish you just stayed in ya know? I would like to hear someones theory on dreams, there is no pain there and I have had many gorgeous ones in the last few nights. Korinne says were just getting all the bad stuff out of the way so the rest of our life together is a beautiful one.

I have a big weekend ahead of me, got the big visit friday with the doctors and experts then my brother wheels me off to meet a good group of fighters at the UFC fan expo, wait til they see my scars eh? I just want to have fun, and give this my best shot for survival and quality of life. Again, I love you all and will throw my best judo at this son of a gun, I have too much still to do. Eric, thank you. Did you watch what I told you to? Rad Martinez - The Promise.

Your Buddy,
Nate " The Bull " H.