Susan, I haven't been on in a few weeks. However when I read your story I was speechless. I rain to my husband and we both read it together. Tears and all we held each others hand and looked into each others eyes. NO words just silence. You my Dear have an enormus (however u spell that word) story to tell. I am so proud of the fact that you chose to tell it to all of us. I can't think of the proper word to say to you--EXCPET WOW!!! You are truly a ANGEL walking amongst us here on earth. I have always none there were ANGELS I have met a few. And now I have you. The stories you must have buried inside of you. I can only pray that you have wrote you life story down along the years. I have since I was 32 but you at 11. Oh my You are a rock of strenght. I am honored to have had the pleasure in reading your story and i PRAY that you please share some more with us. This is how we learn. This is were we get our hopes and of dreams. This is a place to make friends. This is a place to look beyond the scars and the pain and love and give to each other. I have found so much peace and spirit from this forum. I belong to another one as well. I don't know what I would do without them both. There is only so much you can tell your family and friends. On here you can ask a question and actulaly get a answer. You can feel bad, sad or lonely and someone will help you thru it. This is like a huge arm that can reach out and hold you. I just don't know what I would do without it. I really don't....Thank you for sharing your story with all of us and what a inspiration it was for me to read it.....I have made a copy of it and have it in a frame on my desk. ALways Miss Vicki