The pain I am reading here on your posts are so emotional and real to me. So glad that you and Matt are in a better place, CM. Emmett also has mellowed out after spending time with our kids this past weekend (only had one outburst they witnessed) and getting the last bit of cancer out helped too... So we are co-existing on a peaceful level right now. I can live like this, I love the guy!

CG 2 Emmett,7/09 DX SCC rt tongue. T2N1M0, 1 node, marg neg.4/10 PET/CT clear, 9/10 C back. 10/10 Rad hemi, 2 tmrs mod diff. resec flr of mth. Flap 4 nodes/w/ext cap. 11/10 Peg, CX3 HD, 30 rad. 1/31 & 3/21 6/11/11 - PET/CT "activity" 9/11-all Clear. 12/11 peg out. 2/15 still all clear! 9/14 Prostate cancer treated with pencil beam proton therapy, best radiation experience. Keep it in mind as a treatment option for all tumors that can be seen including head and neck.