Thank you for posting, both of you. I also had a mini meltdown, crying session today because I too just needed to be held - it has also been soooo long and even when I asked for a hug - I was ignored. I know my husband loves me but it is like he has shut down emotionally and I miss him. We went to Mayo this week and he was given an all clear PET/CT and I thought he would be happy but he hasn't been. Almost angier. Deb, you are at the hardest time right now, the weeks right after radiation were the most difficult that I remember of this journey. Hang in there and know you are not alone with your feelings, I guess they are the new "normal". Take care.

CG 2 Emmett,7/09 DX SCC rt tongue. T2N1M0, 1 node, marg neg.4/10 PET/CT clear, 9/10 C back. 10/10 Rad hemi, 2 tmrs mod diff. resec flr of mth. Flap 4 nodes/w/ext cap. 11/10 Peg, CX3 HD, 30 rad. 1/31 & 3/21 6/11/11 - PET/CT "activity" 9/11-all Clear. 12/11 peg out. 2/15 still all clear! 9/14 Prostate cancer treated with pencil beam proton therapy, best radiation experience. Keep it in mind as a treatment option for all tumors that can be seen including head and neck.