Hi Liza, sorry I haven't been on to see your posts. So very glad that you found all of these wonderful people here. They have helped many of us fellow Aussies. I for one would have been lost without all of these guys when Steve was going through treatment. Steve's cancer was also in his lymph nodes. When he was diagnosed he was stage 4 and we were not given any hope. He will be 18 months clear this month. Even his doctors are inspired by him as they have told us they didn't expect this outcome. Stay positive Liza, there are many people who have beaten this disease even after it's gone to the lymph nodes. Come here as often as you need to, even if just to vent. Everyone here understands exactly how you feel and will offer the best support. Keep us updated and I will be thinking of you on Monday.