Hello Liza!

Welcome to OCF! Glad you found us, sorry you had to!

First...ease your mind. We have a saying on these boards that it's not cancer until the biopsy says it is. Waiting can be a cruel game, but put it out of your mind. Just breath and believe. Know that fear and anxiety are only in your mind, thus they are in your control.

If you are having trouble controlling those emotions try chemical assistance. I'm an advocate of medical marijuana. Now I do NOT condone smoking it...but vaporizing it or using it in food products are just the ticket. It'll help your appetite too smile If you're opposed to that, ask your Dr about anti-anxiety meds (scripts never worked for me) to help you get your head wrapped around your emotions. Yoga or meditation is another route...personally I would combine MJ with the yoga as it helps keep off the unwanted pounds and keeps my swimsuit physique laugh

Anyway, keep your chin up and keep using this site for the great advice and support that people like Christine are so adept at!

Eric

Young Frack, SCC T4N2M0, Cisplatin,35+ rads,ND, RT Mandiblectomy w fibular free flap, facial paralysis, "He who has a "why" to live can bear with almost any "how"." -Nietzche "WARNING" PG-13 due to Sarcasm & WAY too much attitude, interact at your own risk.