Thanks EZJim. I am moderately terrified, but want this out. I know the fear will be there even after the procedure, but perhaps then I can breath a little better. I am now trying to get my MRI sorted out. I am what they call urgent, and they have booked me for Feb 4 (I would hate to see what NON urgent is) but I am told there is availability and spots kept open and I can call daily to see if they can move me up. If that doesn't work I want to find out about having it done privately. I do not want to wait on this. I want it done and gone ASAP. I am not looking foward to the surgery or the recovery or possible radiation but I am determined. It's such a roller coaster of emotions. We had a great holiday with my kids home from school, and snowboarding, but it's always there in the back of your mind like a shadow. I was happy, and scared and numb, it's just soooo bizarre... Then coming home it hit me - my kids are gone - back to school - not too far but far enough that a commute isn't possible for one of them, and I may not get to see one of them again for at least 2 months depending on my surgery date. It's so hard, but I am very grateful to have someone to talk to here, a great family, and a friend who is helping me meander my way through the medical system!