HGT - I hope you take all the advice above and get yourself to a Cancer Center. Christine gave you a link above. The changes that we go through in life can be pretty stressful especially when so many come all at once. Cancer can really put a big dent in one's lifestyle and financial means, and can force us to make drastic changes in future plans, and reconsider options. But all that becomes small stuff when compared with the love of family and friends. I am so glad that my son chose to fight the biggest fight of his life and that he allowed me and the rest of his family to be part of his recovery. His beautiful little 5-year old daughter was a big reason my son kept going and now, four years later, when I see the love that radiates between them, my heart just bursts with love and pride for the two of them. Life is good. Believe it!