Minh - it's good to hear that you are taking steps to being good to yourself. The counselor you have an appointment with sounds like the perfect person to be talking to! When people ask how you are and you reply "Ok" I have to tell you that when my son would tell me he was "ok" I would always say "just ok?" and we would talk about why it was not closer to "terrific" and what to do about that feeling. You cannot go from being really down to something "really good". It takes very small steps to bring yourself up. Being finished with treatment and the normal routine of daily trips to the doctor is quite a change, even for caregivers. You tend to get the feeling of "what now?" and it's hard to see that light at the end of the tunnel. Any change in life, whether it's a good change or a not so good change is stressful, but it's temporary and the good feelings do come back again. Soon you will have more energy for your two-year-old. For now, I'm sure she just enjoys having you close by while she plays and knows her Mom is getting better. And now is the time for someone else to cook for you. You might mention that when they say, "how can I help?" They may not be as good as you at cooking but whatever they bring you will give you a warm feeling to know they made the effort.