Thanx everyone for your support. I'm not on antidepressents yet, i think i can make it through but if things get worse i will definitely look into it. I have booked to to see a counsellor for next week so hopefully i can hang in there till then and she may help ( the counsellor had oral cancer herself 5 yrs ago!!)

Guess i was just feeling sorry for myself. I managed to make it throught treatment fine and then all a sudden everything just hit me about two weeks after treatment finished. Sometimes its so hard to see that light at the end of the tunnel. I have never been one to feel down or moped around so feeling like this makes me feel even less myself. I just want to feel the old me again but i guess from everyone's posts that its not going to happen. I have to find this new me and be happy with her. I have always been a happy and smiley person (still am most of the time) so i'm finding all these negative feelings really hard. If people ask how are you? its alwasys "really good" because I am but now i feel like i'm lying even when i reply "im ok".

Minh