Paula,
What a sweet, loving, caring, brave, sacred heart you have been throughout this ordeal. What a lucky man Jim is to have you by his side, bringing about the good, and coping with the bad. Remember to let yourself feel all of the feelings and have all of the tantrums you need to get to the "feeling better" stage.

Yesterday, when you responded to my hot pet scan, you told me, "just reach in deep and hang in there." I have been repeating that to myself today, and have found comfort. I hope you will wrap those words around yourself like a blanket and feel the same warmth they have given me.

Barb