Oh Eric- I am so sorry. Suicide is so hard to understand. I htink that for whatever reason- emotional termoil- overwhelming sadness or dissapointment that just consumes someone or a chemical imbalance at the moment the person feels there is no other choice to make. It doesn't make sense but for that person it seems the only way out at that moment in time. I'm sure that this must be heartbreaking for you and your family. As difficult as it may be I hope that you will only have happy memories of her time here with you on earth.
I'm so very glad your hear that your surgeries went well and that you are making progress. You've sure been through a tough time with all of this and this doesn't make it any easier I am sure. Wishing you a very successful recovery and peaceful and healthy 2010. You deserve it!
Sincerely,
KATE