Hey Tony, and welcome to the site. You sound like you are doing just fine, actually you sound damn lucky!!! Keep the great spirits up and you will come through this with flying colors, as far as the depression, maybe you just needed to talk to someone that has been through what you just went through, cause i dont care what anyone says...its scarier than hell!!! The worst part, is the "not knowing and the waiting". But its all over and now you can take a deep breath and move your life forward! laugh As far as your "guy thing" best advice i have for you (being a woman) is keep that puppy in tact and be more careful, haha hell your old enough to know better!!! Your like a cat with 9 lives, a stroke and now this...wow, someone up there loves you!!! Take care and keep talking, its the best medicine laugh