What a difference a few weeks makes and thank you all for letting me rant and responding with encouragement. Mom's surgery was outpatient, successful and she's out running around already (tho a bit slower but for 77 years old that ain't bad). Mike saw the surgeon who wanted the petscan done as he is now 3 months out of tx. ND is scheduled for Tuesday. Petscan was today and was clear except for the lymph nodes in his neck that are coming out Tuesday. They can't tell from the pet if it was still active disease or dead tissue but it's comin' out Tuesday anyhow. The Zoloft is a thing of the past and he's doing well on Lexapro.....it's like having my husband back again! I managed to get more OCF stuff into another dentist's office this week and more will go to the hospital next week as Mike's surgery is not at the same hospital where his chemo and RT took place. There is something to be said about getting to the end of your rope and tying a knot