The worrying is the hardest part. The comfort I found from this site is so amazing. I'm really happy you found this site, it is like a little (or big actually) family. The kindness and understanding of the people here brings a tear to my eye.

Along with this site, I go to a therapist to discuss my feelings and issues. That has been a huge help to me. I wish you much luck. I would also suggest keeping a close circle of supporters who know what you have been through. We all need to vent sometimes!!