Dear PJ, We are here and will listen to you, hold your hand, talk on the phone - whatever we can do to help you get through this. There are several here right now, including me, who have been in your shoes or are walking this path right now. It is so hard, what you are having to go through. What I can tell you is that most of us have been able to find the strength to meet this head on because we were helping someone we love. I am sorry to hear that your Hospice is not as supportive as you need. Are you TELLING them you need more help? You should not have 24\7 responsibility of a dying husband! And the more medication he is on - the more supervision he will need. Do you have any family who can help? [guess not if you are in this situation] PJ, my husband died at home- it was my promise to him- and I will talk to you about anything you want to talk about. If you will send me a private message with your phone #, I will call you. I know you are exhausted, scared, etc. etc. But the thing now is to get through this. So let us help. Amy