Hello friends, I have entered the land of the living again! Chemo and I did not make friends and I don't see a good future for us. The day of having it put in was fine, shoot they gave me a big bag of benadryl that knocked me out for the entire time. My mom literally had to wake me up to take me home. That night I was achy and tired but it wasn't to bad. Day 2 was when the storm hit, the nausea set in and made itself comfortable. I only vomited 4 times over the next three days but the nausea stayed with me. I have decided that I would rather puke than feel like I have to puke! They gave me a shot the second day for my WBC and it made my body ache, alot. So, out came the compazine, the zofran, the tylenol and the vicodin. The compazine suppositories (fun, fun) seemed to work pretty well and I also used some of the very expensive Zofran but nothing took the feeling away. By day 5 I was starting to climb out of the hole and today I feel much better. My big concern now is getting strength back. I've fainted twice trying to go to the bathroom and it really scares my mom. I'm slowly introducing the Carnation VCU, very watered down, along with some baby foods. I lost 9 pounds in the past week but I had gained extra so I'm ok. I've already gained back 2 pounds.

I find that all I want to do is sleep..............so I do. Whenever I feel like I need to, I sleep. And it's healing powers are noticable.

Nelie, my address is 4524 Revere Drive, Va. Beach, Va. 23456, last name is Ashworth. I told Kayla a special person was sending some scarfs so she's excited. I'm keeping a close watch on my hair, so far I'm must noticing more of it coming out when I brush it or wash it than usual, not sure if that's a sign. I'm prepared either way.

My thoughts are consumed with the fact that I have to do this again in a couple weeks.............where do we find the strength?

Love to all,
Minnie