thanks for your words, as always! kinda crappy today, long day, no sleep, blah blah blah. cannot wait til baseball season is over and overwhelmed that school is about to let out and gonna have to find a way to change schedules all over again! apparantly, there is a 2 week gap between school and camp, in usual circumstances, would have this all taken care of way before now! in addition, this sunday is the adoption picnic. it is once a year and all of sam's (my little guy) birth-family comes (like 30 of them!) they are awesome (and the whole experience is amazing every year) again, have not even planned how to feed them all - another thing i usually would have done before now! house is a mess, making it worse just a general feeling of outta control, grrrr. i know, give myself a break, unfortunately, the rest of the universe just keeps on going! tg tomorrow's friday! read your last post and appreciate your concern. i am ok, and i truly feel the info gets at least that issue somewhat in my grasp. it certainly makes me sad, but at the same time it's a whole lot better than having it all be one big surprise! listening to you, further down the line, with your upbeat attitude, proves to me that life will go on (differently, but still the same : ) don't feel like you have to use "kid gloves" i can take it and you are only helping me (even if it feels like you are giving me gloomy info at times!) just wanted you to know this, cause i don't want you to be concerned. i can tell you are a wonderful and caring person, who would never want to hurt anyone, the fact that you take so much time to help others is something you should be proud of : ) as i am sure it helps you, it sooo helps others! how great that you sing, not one of my talents (actually i am an artist, or at least trained to be) it is always so awesome to find a niche in the world that you are not only good at, but feel good doing (if you can spread the passion to others, even better!) thank goodness you can still enjoy it and share it with the world!!! off to bed, sleep tonight, maybe... talk soon!
marieka
