Well, Jim had his 4th and final Erbitux treatment today along with his last radiation treatment on his leg. His rash is very bad - he has scabs and pimples from the waist up - Today is my daughter's 20th birthday and she met us at the restaurant...very embarassed, I might add with Jim's appearance. I have to tell you all, her birthday gift consisted of a card, a purse size photo album & a purse size phone-book for important phone #'s...the disappointment was all over her face, but I don't care - my girls EXPECT $100 bills, but I have since ceased all of that since they have been soooo resentful of Jim - he of course went to supper, endured the stares from other tables and never once complained. Where did we go wrong with our youth....here I am being a caregiver and taking care of my husband (as it should be) and my own family still riducules me and resents the fact that I am even in the same room with cancer. I know this is the right thing to do....even if it means losing my children for a short time - I hope they use it as an example for their lives in the future.

Jim is very frustrated as he is a contractor and with all the wind and hail that the Dallas/Ft. Worth area incurred, he wants to be out helping people and supporting his family...which BTW he is....we close on our new home, Wednesday and it will take him 90 days to gut it and remodel it...so hopefully that will keep him busy for a while. We have an appt. with his chemo Doc on Monday 4/21 and he goes for PET/MRI on 5/15.....will keep everyone updated.

Thanks again Brian, for making this forum what it is today...a place where we can celebrate, cry and ultimately be available for each other.

Hugs,
Paula


Hugs,
Paula