Thanks everyone for responding to me. He is only having Erbitux with his radiation and today was his 3rd day (he had Cisplatin the first go round and didn't tolerat it very well, so they stopped doing it after the 3rd treatment). For the last 2 days he has been complaining of a massive headache...of course, I fear the worst, but I give him tylenol and it seems that benadryl is helping with his "hot skin"...when I touch his skin it is hot, but he has no fever...I hope it's because of the combination radiation/Erbitux.

At this point, I'm overwhelmed - before he was diagnosed again, we had put a contract on a house after selling ours and we're supposed to close on it April 25th...by trade he is a contractor and is a perfectionist! Of course, we bought a fixer upper (HUD home) and now I don't want to go forward with it, but this is where he gets his greatest rewards - he does the most gorgeous and beautiful work. I don't know what to do at this point...move forward on the house, while he undertakes the fight for his life and also a major remodel...I'm so lost and scared - I don't talk with my fears with him because he always puts me first and when I did talk to him about this he says...everything will be fine - I'm fine and I'll be fine. His goal is to get me closer to my work and not have a 2 hour commute each day. We've been married for a little over a year - in fact we escalated our marriage when he was diagnose. He had never been married & doesn't have any children...his family is wonderful, but I don't want to stress them any more than they already are with my feelings and fears - so y'all are it:-)

I read the board all the time and have over the past year...just don't say a lot as everyone has such good advice and I thank the Lord that there are people out there that truly understand what the patients and care givers are going through...I hope that one day we can all meet in a central location and see and talk with one another....Thanks you guys and gals out there!