First off I would like to thank yall for your responses. I see a psychiatrist tomorrow and am avidly searching for a new counselor. I didnt agree with some of the views of my old counselor so thats the reason for looking for a new one.....LOL

David, I dont know what children with cancer has to do with me whatsoever. I am trying to figure out why all of the anger. I hope you dont think I am feeling sorry for myself either because that certainly is not the case. I thank God for the 45 years I have lived and I hope to live 45 more but only He knows that. I am really baffled about the "lighten up" part. As I have already stated, I am just trying to figure out what is going on with me. By the way, I have visited the Atrium at MUSC hospital in Charleston, SC where I was treated and the children will bring tears to your eyes but, once again, that has nothing at all to do with why I originally started this thread.

Thanks again,
Billy