Michelle- I really dislike the saying that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. Whoever came up with that one is very strong or very naive. I'm sure you feel like he's dealt you a little too much-I know i do right about now. I've also gotten sick of hearing that it's gonna be ok. It probably will not be for my husband. I often wonder if this experience will make me a better listener because you don't know how truly irritating it is to hear all this until you do under these circumstances. That is why this website has changed my life. People here don't give you standard answers. You get some tough ones along with the hopeful ones- reality vs. fiction. I have also had a so called good friend disappear. I never realized how self centered she was. Her grandparents both battled cancer and won so you think she would understand. My 18 year old daughter told me she saw this one's true colors years ago. I guess I'm not as perceptive about people as she is.

Don't ever think you are researching too much. Most of our doctor's have welcomed my questions. I even got the oncolgist to change my husband's prior treatments to once a week instead of once a month so the dosing was lower abd he wasn't as sick. You are doing the right thing. Just rememeber to take a breather for yourself once in awhile. Sue