I know exactly how you feel. And if we exchanged detailed stories I might make you feel better because my guess is my long term after-effects are worse than yours. I still struggle to eat soup and yogurt three years after treatment, for example. I would give anything just to be able to eat stewed meat let alone popcorn which is in the realm of pure fantasy. Don't give up on further improvement with your swallowing--it happens, I've seen it happen here--but it's definitely OK to be angry about where you are once in a while.

I know Brian is right we should all just be glad to be here, but I have had doctors remind me of that enough when I complain that I also resent being told that on the rare occassions when I do vent. It's OK to just be angry sometimes. We don't ask non-cancer survivors to be grateful they are on this side of the grass all the time no matter what else happens in their lives-why is that fact supposed to make us cancer survivors instantly forget all the difficult after-effects we struggle with? You don't have to be glad all the time. You can be a raving cancer-survivor b*@#ch and I'll understand, as will many of us here. Because we know the irony is that if you let yourself feel the way you feel, it helps keep you sane and not full of anger most of the rest of the time.

Nelie