Stoj:
Your comments were scary to read! I feel as though this happens in phases. There are days I feel "normal" (Whatever that was) and can conquer the world, then there are days when I feel so inferior, like all my co-workers/bosses have me under the microscope and I have a fight on my hands to prove myself. I seem to be adding hours and workload that I did not have before cancer, and I have even said flat out to my wife on a few occasions that I am trying to prove something, if no more than to myself. I am more proactive about a lot of things, but it's like I'm over doing it just to compensate(?), (For what I don't know). I often catch myself saying I need to pace myself and rest a little more/spend a little more time on "me", but it seems so hard to slow down (Like "the clock's tickin' baby!).
I hope this makes sense. If this strikes a cord with anyone I would sure be interested in hearing about it!
Regards,
Steve


SCC right side BOT/FOM; DX 1-25-06; Neck dissection/25% of tongue removed 2-17-06. Stage 2 Recurrence 7-06: IMRTX35 & 3X Cisplatin ended 10-18-06. Tumor found 03/18/13; Partial Glossectomy 03/28/13 left lateral tongue. Nov. 2014; headaches,lump on left side of throat. Radical Neck Dissection 12-17-14; Tumor into nerves/jugular; Surgery successful, IMRTX30 & 7X Erbotux. Scan 06-03-15; NED! 06-02-16; Mets to left Humerus bone and lesion on lungs-here We go again! Never, Ever Give Up!

**** PASSED AWAY 10/8/16 ****