Dave, that was such a good line you had in your post, how you were still innocent at the age of 58. I believe that's how it is for all of us, until something like this happens, no matter our age. We spend our lives knowing that death is there, waiting for us, and that it will claim us one day. But we don't worry about it, we don't think of it a hundred times a day, it's something that is safely in the shadows of a long hallway in my opinion. We feel safe and innocent where death is concerned. Then we become a cancer patient, and it's like someone turned on a light in that dark hallway and the face of cancer, the realness of it, jumps out at us. Innocence is gone, safety net ripped to shreds.
So, for you to say you were innocent at the age of 58............every other 58 year old man that hasn't suffered your disease is STILL innocent!

Great responses, I can always count on this board to make me know that my feelings are valid and that I'm not a total nutcake.
Love,
Minnie