My heart goes out to you - and boy haven't we all been there whether it was a first diagnosis or a reoccurance. You are doing all the right things and while those 10 commandments are for sure TRUE, its pretty tough to put your faith in them enough to reassure yourself. Sometimes you just have to let go and let the professionals do what they do. You don't like it, the waiting is from HELL, but you really don't have much choice. Its not like you have your head buried in the sand - you have done everything you can and I sure hope that venting your feelings helps to ease your worries. As trite as it sounds, none of us can cross a bridge that we are not at. Try some deep breathing exercises to calm yourself, distraction is good as is busy work. Try to not let this thief (cancer and the fear thereof) steal even another second from you. You've done what you can - now put that worry away and try to enjoy this day. If not, cancer - whether here or not - has stolen another day from you! Protect yourself against thieves!!

Donna