Oh Ginny - I am so sorry for the worry and anxiety you are having to deal with. But it's good that you are seeing the ENT tomorrow. You've taken the right steps, but wouldn't it be much better for you if you could confide in your husband? Sharing something so difficult really helps to lessen the load you are carrying. And I know as a caregiver, it really helped me a lot to know what my son was going through and especially being able to do something even if it's just making a phone call or holding him in my arms. You really won't know until someone gives you a definitive diagnoses what's really happening, so try to think about all the positive things that could happen, not just the scary stuff. You've already done a lot to get things moving and in the right direction. When you talk to your doctor tell him exactly how you are feeling. If you can take someone with you to your appointment, it would really help to be able to remember what you find out and to ask the right questions. I'm so glad you came here to express your fears. THere are lots of good people ready to support you and offer good advice. Let us know what happens tomorrow.