OK , well most of you know me by now ,,enough to know that I can be rather quirky . But I am having a hard time and I don't know that anyone here gets it....I think they think I am crazy ..maybe I am

Last year on Jan 22nd , I sat in an Oral surgeons office and was told that I had Oral cancer, you all know what followed and what the year was like ..If you dont know my exact personal experience you know you own. It wasnt fun. and I don't like being at Dr's offices, even for the kids and routine check ups. It get s overwhelming to me .. I spent ALOT of time in Dr'sm offices and Hospitals last year.

So ANYHOW.. This year on Jan 22nd ( 1 year to the DAY ) My 8 year old will be having surgery with an Oral Surgeon. To Ironic for me . The Oral Surgeon part has Nothing to do with cancer , they are removing 9 teeth as they don't know what is going on with her Lymph Node. Actually , they are now talking about bringing someone in to biospy the Node while she is Under as it hasnt gone down . It has been 3-4 weeks and 3 full courses of Antibiotics. So they may Biopsy to test for Lymphoma while she is Under the anesthia... Are you Kidding me .....1 Year to the day ..WOW.
ANd the fact an Oral Surgeon , I mean if it was her appendix , it wouldn't hit so close to home.

I know I am being neurotic or crazy . I also don't want to sit there alone while my child is in surgery . I asked Joe if he was going to go with me. He seemed bothered by it .

I know that part of the reason is because His EX GF ( from 17 years ago mind you ) is a nurse at that Hospital ( I dont usually use that hospital , i dont have a choice this time) .
I don't think he wants to deal with her. LIKE I DO ?????
She has tried to cause alot of problems over the past 16 1/2 years..Crazy obssesive things.. almost scary at times that someone holds on to a 6 month HS relationship like that .

Whatever ..I can deal I have to for my daughter...Just a dreaded day !!

Not to mention I have a new lesion on the floor of my mouth under my tongue ,fun fun fun , way to start of the new year . My ENT thinks it looks viral ( that is what they said about the cancer too !) so again a wait and see game ..I think right now I am just more stressed about my daughter and her surgery and the date and the fact it is at that hospital ....ughhhhhhhhhhhhh