Tony, are you physically fit and able to do the work you want to do? i.e.- is loss of voice your only detriment to doing what you used to do pre-cancer? If you were able to perform your job [voice or no voice] as an employer I would have no problem hiring you. In fact, right now, we have a subcontractor who cannot read well, cannot speak well and is on disability. But he is swamped with work because he is good at what he does. Those people who are "wincing in pain" when
you talk to them either have not been prepared for what you are dealing with or are stupid. And if your friends are shying away, then you need to find new friends. You agotta deal with whatever the "new you' is. I know it is hard stuff- but you are a strong guy-right? Amy