Bill,
All I can say is "I understand". I'm only 3 1/2 months out from radiation now, and only started eating (some) solid food in the last couple of weeks. I've been living on liquids for the last 5 months. I did not have a PEG, but managed to keep weight loss down to 30lbs-from 185 to 155 and maintaining. The liquids that have been sustaining my weight have been Ensure, Prosure, and Naturade's Weight Gain mixed in milk.

I developed some kind of 'food phobia', and was not able/willing to eat. Then, about 2 weeks ago, I forced myself to eat some french toast dripping in butter and syrup. I felt so good afterward, that I continued eating something every day, mostly a few bites of chicken or steak washed down with water. Eating anything is a huge chore for me, but I'm able to do it daily. Everything tastes absolutely horrible, but all I can say is, I feel so much better after food than without it. I gaining some energy, too, and feeling more 'normal' every day.

I encourage you to bite the bullet, continue drinking the liquid nutrition, and keep trying different foods until you find one you can tolerate. (By 'tolerate', I mean get down and keep down no matter how bad it tastes or how angry you get). Keep trying, don't give up, it's worth it!

Riley