I have come to despise eating.... - 09-15-2006 03:06 PM
Greetings dear friends. Bill is back, but returns with a problem and looking for assistance once again. The answer to my problem will likely be right here in this text, and I know it. However, I just cannot do anything about solving it with my current mindset.
I am eleven months out from treatment now, fourteen from being diagnosed. My stress level is climbing daily. Due to unforseen circumstances I am unfortunately without any health coverage at present, and have not had any for the past two and a half months. Because of that I have not seen a doctor in that time period either. That will change in a couple of weeks when my new coverage kicks in.
I have moved my wife to Massachusetts, along with all the family pets and most of our "stuff". I remain here in S Florida, trying desparately to sell our home so that I can join her up north. The house is currently listed at some $ 20K less than market, yet still I get not even an offer.
The above, though problems, are not my primary concern right now though. My primary concern right now is weight loss, in the form of muscle loss. I have gone from a bit overweight 215 down to 150, ten pounds of which I have lost in the past couple weeks. My massage therapist, yes I am still being given free massages once a week, has informed me that the time is now to do something about this. She has noticed the muscle loss that has happened over the past several weeks. I now have those ugly flapping in the breeze deposits of fat that used to be at least partially hidden by muscle that was beneath them just about everywhere.
In a single word to what is likely the first question to be brought forward, no. I am not eating the way that I should be. A little over a year ago I had a voracious appetite. Today I have no desire to eat at all. My ability to taste has not returned in any degree. Because the list of things that I can taste is so limited I have even gotten tired of eating what I can taste. Eating foods that I cannot taste lost its place on my things to do long ago. Yes my caloric intake is not where it should be, to even maintain, let alone gain. I am being semi-active during the day, even doing some walking to get some additional exercise. Unfortunately we all know that the exercise burns calories, calories that I cannot afford to burn.
Over the past week I have tried a few protein mixes to increase my protein intake, knowing that it supposedly is what is required for muscle growth. I cannot stand the taste, yes I can taste them in whatever I mix them in, much less the horrible smell, regardless of the flavor. I also developed a diarrhea problem and thus stopped.
I am at my wits end here. I just do not know how to force myself to eat. Being alone, there is noone here to nag me or give me a kick in the a../butt, though it too is nearly non-existant now too, save the wrinkled deposits of fat, and would be hard to find. I gave some thought to attempting to contact the nutritionist that was assigned to me during my treatment, but having no medical coverage that apparently is also not possible.
Any suggestions to motivate me to eat, or how I can somehow get my protein intake up would be gratefully appreciated.
Withering away in S Florida,
Bill
I am eleven months out from treatment now, fourteen from being diagnosed. My stress level is climbing daily. Due to unforseen circumstances I am unfortunately without any health coverage at present, and have not had any for the past two and a half months. Because of that I have not seen a doctor in that time period either. That will change in a couple of weeks when my new coverage kicks in.
I have moved my wife to Massachusetts, along with all the family pets and most of our "stuff". I remain here in S Florida, trying desparately to sell our home so that I can join her up north. The house is currently listed at some $ 20K less than market, yet still I get not even an offer.
The above, though problems, are not my primary concern right now though. My primary concern right now is weight loss, in the form of muscle loss. I have gone from a bit overweight 215 down to 150, ten pounds of which I have lost in the past couple weeks. My massage therapist, yes I am still being given free massages once a week, has informed me that the time is now to do something about this. She has noticed the muscle loss that has happened over the past several weeks. I now have those ugly flapping in the breeze deposits of fat that used to be at least partially hidden by muscle that was beneath them just about everywhere.
In a single word to what is likely the first question to be brought forward, no. I am not eating the way that I should be. A little over a year ago I had a voracious appetite. Today I have no desire to eat at all. My ability to taste has not returned in any degree. Because the list of things that I can taste is so limited I have even gotten tired of eating what I can taste. Eating foods that I cannot taste lost its place on my things to do long ago. Yes my caloric intake is not where it should be, to even maintain, let alone gain. I am being semi-active during the day, even doing some walking to get some additional exercise. Unfortunately we all know that the exercise burns calories, calories that I cannot afford to burn.
Over the past week I have tried a few protein mixes to increase my protein intake, knowing that it supposedly is what is required for muscle growth. I cannot stand the taste, yes I can taste them in whatever I mix them in, much less the horrible smell, regardless of the flavor. I also developed a diarrhea problem and thus stopped.
I am at my wits end here. I just do not know how to force myself to eat. Being alone, there is noone here to nag me or give me a kick in the a../butt, though it too is nearly non-existant now too, save the wrinkled deposits of fat, and would be hard to find. I gave some thought to attempting to contact the nutritionist that was assigned to me during my treatment, but having no medical coverage that apparently is also not possible.
Any suggestions to motivate me to eat, or how I can somehow get my protein intake up would be gratefully appreciated.
Withering away in S Florida,
Bill