Of course you didn't mean to scare me. Please don't worry about that. The fact is, I'm easily scared these days and I just need to learn to cope with my fears and go on working towards recovery. The fact is, no one knows what's going to happen to them tommorrow on terms of this disease once you'be been diagnosed. All you can do is fight the good fight which I have managed to do so far.

I truly hate the disease and I hate that any of us have reason to be scared by it, especially fater going through such a demanding treatment as radiation is, but I'm very grateful for this community even when it reminds me of possibilities I'd rather not think about too much.