Wow, the new normal people keep saying that to me. "You have to find the new normal" What the hell does it look like, feel like or smell like? Nothing that is happening right now is normal. It's doctors appointments, hospitals, alcohol wipes, drugs, and stress. I can't imagine that any of this is the "new normal" I wonder everyday what our "new" life will be like. Will he be able to return to his job? Pucker his lips to kiss me? (I know that seems weird, but as a wife you think about these things) Will we have to sell our house and car to stay afloat? Right now I feel depressed, trapped, lonely and scared. Everyone acts like happy little cheerleaders and I just can't get into that. Maybe it is just cause I am scared about everything.
Liz, you are an amazing woman. I can't imagine what you are going through, but you have helped so many of us with your wisdom and supportive words. I hope you will continue helping all of us in our journey.
God Bless
Valerie


CG to husband, 47 nonsmoker DX 8/1/07 StageIV BOT SSC T4N2B. Surgery 8/16/07 Partial glossectomy, left ND 2 nodes involved with extracapsular extension. 10/1/07 Begin Tomo therapy x 33, 3 cycles of cisplatin. All tx complete November 27, 2007