Hey Cookie,
Very eloquently put and I so feel for how you must be feeling now.
The 'new norm' for you must be devastating after a roller coaster of a year which has been filled with all things totally, horrifically, unimaginable for most people.

Another 'new normal' WILL take over at some point, and be assured that although you may feel 'changed forever', your strength, compassion and willingness to help others will ensure that you are appreciated and loved for things other than having been a fantastic Caregiver and advocate.

Continue to take time for yourself, to heal YOU Liz and know that when you feel alone, we are always here for you.

The weather aint too bad today--take a walk in the fresh air and get to the Hairdresser's--and book another appointment for next month! Please look after yourself now, you have other roles in life besides being a Caregiver, be nice to yourself and know you are loved.

Bren x