Kelly, Sorry for such a bad anniversary. Your father was a lucky man to have someone to be with him during his last troubles. Remembering the good times is all any of us really has with each other. It is better to dwell in the silver lining than in the stormy part of the cloud, and every cloud has both. You can choose to live in the stormy part or the silver lining part. Silver lining is better. Keep dwelling in the good times, I'm sure your father would prefer that. I will pray for your relief from the worst time in your life.