Hi didier:

I want to applaud you for having the courage to share the raw painful feelings you are having with us here. Acknowledging that you feel overwhelmed and angry is a huge step in the process of coping and you seem on your way. Feel free to continue to use this forum as a safe haven to talk about youe feelings since they are familiar to most of us and you aren't alone.

Seeking some professional support seems like a logical and wise thing to do given the depth of your feelings and the other multiple life issues you are dealing with currently. A good therapist can "hold the bag" while you fill it with emotional tools that will serve you well throughout this process. Luckily, I have an oustanding therapist and mentor who helped make the difference coping with Dave's cancer diagnosis and recovery process.

With good wishes,

Kim