You guys are a constant reminder to me that there is still good in the world. Even if you can't see it on a day to day basis, it's still here. Bless you all.

Brian can tell you. I was one of the first on this board years ago. I gave him a hard time........I was so MAD! At everything, and nothing. It didn't matter.

At the time, Dennis was a raging alcoholic, in total denial, with two small boys to raise. I threw in the towel, called his boss, and told him how bad it was at home. Thank God, he supported me, and told Dennis that he wouldn't have a job if he didn't do rehab. It was so bad that I had my, and the boys, clothes in the truck in case he refused. I was leaving. He knew it was his last chance at a family. And he did it!!!!!.....He never had another drink, But....he didn't put down the cigarettes. How could I berate him, especially since he had come so far?

Now, after five blessed years of pretending that nothing happened.....this disease is back. I know, he knows, the family knows, that the smoking had a direct effect, but how do you beat someone up when they've been through so much?

You don't know........my husband is a wonderful, hard-working honest person....he just smokes. And now, we are reliving this nightmare, and I'm afraid that we won't get anymore free passes.

I still love him with all my heart. I don't want to lose him.

Mandi