A big fat smile and tears as well are all over my face. 1. I can't believe you are posting so soon! 2.I am so glad you found this site and have this in your life (I only wish my dad did)3. You are so right about the mental thing- Like you, my dad was the golden glove boxer, motor cycle crashing, crazy vietnam vet-you might have been separated at birth- pain is no issue(well until recently but you get my drift) BUT NOTHING could have prepared him for what you just described. The confinement, loss of communication, the anxiety of being so fustrated. He to pissed off everybody, and was a big weinnie, but we got over it. He even tried to make a run for it the first night out of surgery, yanking off IVs, the whole coming out of recovery thing.4. YOU DID IT!!!!! YOU ARE STILL HERE!!!! YOUR FAMILY LOVES YOU AND WE SUPPORT YOU!!! GET WELL SOON WE ALL MISSED YOU! Talk to you soon. Your buddy Karen.